Monday, February 28, 2011

Day 16 - your views on mainstream music

I feel like mainstream music isn't the greatest.
The music that's constantly being played on the radio, TV is overrated and meaningless.

I miss music that had meaning, other than just a nice beat with explicit lyrics throughout the song.

Just about everything that is out, isn't true to the artist, but their label.
Therefore, they make music that'll sale.


My Services Aren't For FREE!

So, I've come to conclusion that I'm done doing things for people only to be looked over, forgotten or not paid with respect. Therefore, I'll be charging folks. It seems like when you set rules ABOVE the boundaries, and not expect anything, things run smoothly. 

The free service that I will only give is working in my community (other communities). But as far as helping an upcoming grown person, in whatever it is, I'm charging.

It annoys me when people act like I don't have a life, and I'm here for them 24/7
Last time I checked, I wasn't getting paid for that. & I don't have a job yet? Yes. Ashley is in BUSINESS.

I say this because there have been occurring events with individuals thinking because we're cool or that I should do something for free for them. But what do I get in the ending? NOTHING. I would be a sucker. Just like everyone else is on their grind, so am I. So I'm stopping people in their tracks now.

END Rant...

Day 15 - your favorite tumblrs

I'm on tumblr you can follow me:
I don't have any favorites.

Day 14 - Your earliest memory (Sunday)

My earliest memory. Hmmm.
I can't recall. One I would like to speak on is when I was younger, and my father was living, and I was able to call him up & talk to him, & tell him stories.

Stories, I would make up from the top of my head. Random. He would listen & laugh, an repeat a few lines I had said. It let me know he was actually playing attention.

I miss that. I miss him.

Sunday, February 27, 2011

Thinking of A Master Plan

I have so many ideas & thoughts about different things I want to see in my community & my life. Things regarding my career, nonprofit, relationships, how I spend my free time & things of that nature.

There's a lot of change I would like to see throughout my life. And the best way to see the change you want to see is to be the change you want to see. Why be a hypocrite and not do your part but expect greatness when you're not producing or better yet, projecting greatness?

It all goes hand-in-hand. So, I'm in the works of many different projects, being the change I want to see. It gets overwhelming at times for me, but I have yet to give up. It's something that I'm dedicated to, therefore I will finish it. One reason why I love setting GOALS for myself. 

Speaking of, I need to add more to my list. I find that my vision board that I put together HERE is helpful, but not the PUSH I was looking/hoping for. I'm more of a hands on type of gal. Let me type out my goals, edit, re-read them on my laptop. That's my thing. But that's just me.

I'll be back to post my blog post challenge!

Day 11 - Somewhere you'd like to move or visit (Saturday)

I would love to move to Atlanta, GA. Why? Because for one I have family out there that I would love to be closer to & get to know. I've been there before, and it was for a few days. I really love the the atmosphere there.

There are many places I would love to visit. I actually made a list. I may share that here at a later time.

Friday, February 25, 2011

Day 12 - Bullet your whole day

This is easy, I didn't do much!

  • Woke up LATE
  • Ate lunch
  • Washed my hair
  • Got dressed
  • Did some blogging
  • Washed out my conditioner
  • Twitter
  • Facebook
  • Blogged
  • Now I'm in bed doing this post

That's all folks!

Now what?

Battling With My BIGGEST Enemy.


I'm really debating about taking a hiatus from many things. I may resume at a later date. Shall see...

Thursday, February 24, 2011

No title

After that visit my emotions are everywhere. I don't know what to think or how to feel. I want to be excited. But I'm not. I wish everything was right. The way I want it to be. Ready for something different.

Day 11 - put your ipod on shuffle and write 10 songs that pop up.

Woohoo! This should be fun.

1. TPain- 69
2. Usher- Trading Places
3. Lloyd- I don't mind
4. Kanye West- Power Remix
5. Beyonce- Disappear
6. J Holiday- Pretty Body
7. J Cole- Higher
8. Drake- Fall For Your Type
9. The Dream- Fallin
10. Tyga- Like Me

Day 10 - discuss your first love and first kiss. (Wednesday)

My first love...God seriously sent him to me. A good person indeed. I have no regrets about him. Whether it's with or without...

My first kiss was when I was 16 is I can recall. I was in HS. HA! in the mall I think. Crazy.

Wednesday, February 23, 2011

Day 9 - how you hope your future will be like. (Tuesday)

I hope my future is filled with with prosperity, success, love, happiness & much more.

I see myself having a business, a successful mentoring program/non profit, a family and a home of my own. I know through God anything I put my mind and heart into, it will happen. I don't say this out of hope, but I know.

Career wise, I'm hoping I know what exactly I want to do. Although I stated I wanted to own a business, but I see myself doing more. 

I'm rambling now lol... 

Random: Pay Homage


 something done or given in acknowledgment or considerationof the worth of another:
Give props where they are due.

I can't exaggerate this enough. I highly dislike when someone takes someone's work, or copies.

Cite your material, or pay homage. Nothing flattering about that.

Monday, February 21, 2011

Day 8 - a moment you felt the most satisfied with your life

I would have to say most recently. Before then, I was feeling stressed, annoyed, overwhelmed etc. Now I'm back at peace with myself and current situations. I've left my load with God. I can't handle it, so I'm leaving it up to him. The best way to get by.

There's been a few other times, but I rather go with my most recent right now. Turning 25 and being put in the situations I've had to deal with made me a little more stronger.

I'm a strong individual as it is, but with different things that occur in life, it makes me wiser and that more conscious about life. That I'm still living.

Sunday, February 20, 2011


I never payed attention to this video/song until I seen this gif (picture below). I just fell in love with Beyonce & her music all over again <3

Day 6 - write 30 interesting facts about yourself (Saturdays)

1. Only child
2. I wanted to be a Dermatologist
3. I use to make web pages when I was in high school
4.I've never been to a concert
5. I sing in the shower
6. I have two rooms
7. Very organized
8. I love to help others
9. Working on a mentoring program
10. I don't like to go out clubbing much
11. I've been to Disneyland more than 5 times
12. I don't have to read directions on new electronics I purchase
13. I'm the handywoman around my house
14. I know how to change a tire
15. I bought my first car
16. In middle school I had my own club
17. My freshmen year in college I use to sell blank CD's & floppy disks from my dorm room
18. I use to own two cellphones at once
19. I was diagnosed with Bronchial Asthma at the age of 3
20. I'm allergic to corn & certain fruits
21. When B2K was popular, I was a huge fan
22. I'm not from the south, but I love southern music
23. I've never been drunk
24. My dad was asked to play for the San Diego Padres years ago
25. Related to Otis Redding
26. I started working at the age of 16
27. I had my first serious relationship when I was 21
28. I like to dip my pizza in ranch
29. I hate roller coasters
30. Never been in a fight

Saturday, February 19, 2011

Day 5 - a time you thought about ending your own life (Fridays)

Wow...a touchy subject for me.

Anyone can feel the need to judge someone, but I leave that up to God. You never know what someone maybe going through. I'm not saying because someone maybe going through that it's right, because it's not.

But yes I have. But I'm still here.

My Junior year in HS-Junior year in college were the hardest times in my life.
I lost my father in 2004, right after Prom & right before my graduation..the hardest thing I dealt with.

Throughout my college career, I had to attend at least one funeral a year...imagine that (friend, cousins, great aunts, 2 grandmothers, aunt, and a uncle)...Imagine that...

One person that really made me realize things, was my ex...who is now... (see birthday blog post for explanation) lol, but he had really helped me through many hard times. He's  been there for me through it all. A blessing in disguise he was. He really put things in perspective for me. I thanked God for bringing him into my life.

People really don't know what others maybe going through. Life is hard, so I'm just trying to get by.

Day 4 - your views on religion. (Thursdays)

Def. of religion


the body of persons adhering to a particular set of beliefsand practices: a world council of religions.
the life or state of a monk, nun, etc.: to enter religion.
the practice of religious  beliefs; ritual observance of faith.
something one believes in and follows devotedly; a point ormatter of ethics or conscience: to make a religion of fightingprejudice.


of, pertaining to, or concerned with religiona religiousholiday.
imbued with or exhibiting religion pious; devout; godly: areligious man.
scrupulously faithful; conscientious: religious care.

Am I religious?

I would have to say yes. 2004 was when I really started getting close to God (When I went away to college). Although I wasn't able to attend church like I wanted to, I always kept Him in my daily life. There has been times where I had fallen off. But today is what matters. I've done many different things to get closer to God. Praying & meditating throughout the day. Reading scriptures, doing my duties as a Christian woman & much more. I've changed my ways. I've never been that wild & crazy chick in college. & although I have graduated, I'm not turning into that girl now. Not my thing.

No offense to anyone, but that's not my thing. I'm just trying to better myself and get closer to God, and surrounding myself with Christ like beings. You need to be around those you want to be like. Learn and pray for one another.

This is so off topic...back on topic

But my views on religion is that I serve only one God. If you don't that's fine & on you. It's important to me, and I don't judge others that feel otherwise.

Thursday, February 17, 2011

Random Thoughts: Dear Future Husband

I want a husband that will spend a great amount of time with our child. Have that daughter/son bond that'll make me fall in love with my family all over again.

Stepping in on my husband reading to our child, tucking her/him away for bed, or showing what dad does for a living.

Seeing a father in action with his child(ren) is a beautiful thing. I want what I never got to witness. A happy family with a loving man to call dad.

Natural Hair: Leave in conditioner

NOTE TO SELF: post pictures and blog about my little concoction I made as a leave in conditioner...

Wednesday, February 16, 2011

Attitude Week

Seems like every other person I came across has had a bad attitude. I won't mention any names, but I'm really not the person to mess with right now.

I can't stand individuals that act like their the only ones that has a LIFE. Or the world stops when they become busy.

Pet peeve: not returning phone calls. Oh, but we have time to tweet, facebook it up, and text selective individuals. Please spare me with the lies & mood swings. 
And more guys are starting to have female traits. I'm going to need them to man up a little bit.

Anyways...trying to remove negative energy out of my life. And a few people as well. I can't take much more of the reckless, random attitudes. 

People I thought I once knew, I no longer know. Invisible and unreliable. 

Day 3 - your views on drugs and alcohol

My views on drugs is a no go. I don't do them. Many people abuse it.

My views on alcohol is I like wine or a nice drink from time to time. Never been drunk a day in my life. 
I feel like many females need to learn how to control their alcohol intake when out & about. Rape isn't a joke.

That's all I have to say about that...

Tuesday, February 15, 2011

Day 2 - where you’d like to be in 10 years

Where would I like to be in 10 years. In 10 years I'll be 35. Eeeeks! Crazy how time flies.

By then I'll have my dream car, living out of state somewhere (or maybe in Cali), have my own business or nonprofit successfully running.  & hopefully happily married & blessed with a child.

I would love to have a family of my own. 

Monday, February 14, 2011

Day 1 - your current relationship

I'm currently single. Have been single since Jan. 20 something 2011. But mentally since July 2010. Yup pretty much. Single life is...allowing me to get to know myself as a (going on 25 yr old woman).  I was so use to being in a relationship for 3yrs and some months (almost 4). I can't say I lost myself because I haven't. BUT, it's a change from what I'm use to. Even through the distance we had.

Single life is fine. It's the breakup that's a process. I don't have an issue being alone. But it's difficult right now because I'm healing from a broken heart. It's a task, but I know I'll get through it.

"The Lord has heard my plea; the Lord will answer my prayer" -Pslam 6:9

Blog Challenge.

I'll be starting this challenge riiiiiight NOW! 

day 1 - your current relationship, if single discuss how single life is.
day 2 - where you’d like to be in 10 years.
day 3 - your views on drugs and alcohol.
day 4 - your views on religion.
day 5 - a time you thought about ending your own life.
day 6 - write 30 interesting facts about yourself.
day 7 - your zodiac sign and if you think it fits your personality.
day 8 - a moment you felt the most satisfied with your life.
day 9 - how you hope your future will be like.
day 10 - discuss your first love and first kiss.
day 11 - put your ipod on shuffle and write 10 songs that pop up.
day 12 - bullet your whole day.
day 13 - somewhere you’d like to move or visit.
day 14 - your earliest memory.
day 15 - your favorite tumblrs.
day 16 - your views on mainstream music.
day 17 - your highs and lows of this past year.
day 18 - your beliefs.
day 19 - disrespecting your parents.
day 20 - how important you think education is.
day 21 - one of your favorite shows.
day 22 - how have you changed in the past 2 years?
day 23 - give pictures of 5 guys who are famous who you find attractive.
day 24 - your favorite movie and what it’s about.
day 25 - someone who fascinates you and why.
day 26 - what kind of person attracts you.
day 27 - a problem that you have had.
day 28 - something that you miss.
day 29 - goals for the next 30 days.
day 30 - your highs and lows of this month