Tuesday, March 29, 2011

I'm Still Here!!!!

So I've abandoned this blog since I've started blogging back at http://www.glamnolabelz.com/ 

My personal blog really got me through a lot of things that were and still going on. Situations are lighter, my relationship with God is closer than ever, and trying to maintain a relationship with my God takes time.  Aside from that, I've been so dedicated in raising money for a Essay Contest for AVID high school Seniors in my community (Where I graduated from), that have been accepted to a university for Fall 2011. This essay contest/project is dear to me.

Overall I've been trying to get donations from any & everyone. Big or small. Working on something like this takes a lot of work, and a bit stressful. I myself don't have a job. I know quit a few people that would love to donate but, they have been hit hard by the economy as many of us have. So I had to make new relationships, and tweet about this as often as I could without being a pest & looking like a spammer lol.

I never thought I could pull something like this off, but I have.

It's crazy ...because I was in a dark place, and the storm didn't seem like it would ever be over. In the mist of it all, I found ways to ease my pain a little. Reading the bible, talking to God, writing, talking to women who believe in the Lord, and this essay contest.

When I'm determined to do something, it gets done ON time without a doubt. Not to sound like I'm bragging, but when I was in college (Ewww, I sound old saying that lol) it would be the week of finals/midterms and I had papers that were due that week, I would start them that week, turn it in ON time and get a great grade on it. Nothing less than a B+ ever.

I'm not afraid to say I'm great at what I do. As one of my followers said, and I just read her post (well two ladies), I can't recall who said it, but it was about dreams. Things are easier said than done & I agree. There's a lot that we want to do, but where do you start? Or how?

I say go for it, and as you're in the process of making it happen learn as you go.

My mentoring program is just ONE of the many things that I want & plan to do. I wouldn't mind starting my own business, doing some PR work, & other things. Remember we're not limited. 

Thank you for the comments & love. I look forward to getting to know you all :)

Wednesday, March 23, 2011

Yesterdays Blessings!

I just wanted to post something really quickly before going to bed.

Before I went to bed the other day, I said my prayers like I always try to do before going to bed. I woke up yesterday afternoon to two blessings! God is so good. I didn't even worry about how it was going to work out or anything. Just prayed about it and went to sleep. He asked my mother to wake me up and I received my blessings. 
One that I would like to share was that someone contacted me about signing their child up through my mentoring program. 

I am so thankful!!! I think it's great when others can share what God has done for them. I will now write (not type) in my personal journal and prepare for later today.

What blessings have you shared with others?

God bless...

Monday, March 21, 2011

Sailing Soul(s)..Thee End

"I think we maybe in a different book, on a different page. You said you were different but you're the same, stranger"

Sunday, March 20, 2011

No Sugar Coating-Cleaning Out My Closet

I just need to release some negative energy and how I feel about this situation.

I don't care anymore...
I am no longer "cool" with those that call themselves my friends, but don't act on it. I am no longer keeping negative, non-reliable, sometimey people in my life. You either play your role to the best of your ability or not at all. Don't fake the funk. 

It kills me when people have "positive change" in their lives, but they change for the worst. What's up with that? There's just individuals that I no longer have a desire to be "friends" with.

I'm upset yes. Because where were you when you DID not see me around anymore. Where were you when I started to fade away? Where were you when I needed you? With the different events that have occurred in my life, and people didn't show up and play their part, things are so much clearer to me now. And that's fine. We grow apart. Won't be a part of this life time though. If you see this, if you don't, its what-everrrrr.

As I said to my first love. I wish you nothing but the best. And I truly meant that. The same goes for EX-circle (old friends). It was nice while it lasted. It's just time to separate.

Bible Quotes

"But I keep praying to you, Lord, hoping this time you will show me favor. In your unfailing love, O God, answer my prayer with your sure salvation"-Psalm 69:13

"I know the Lord is always with me. I will not be shaken, for he is right besides me"-Psalm 16:8

"Let me hear of your unfailing love each morning, for I am trusting. Show me where to walk, for I give myself to you"-Psalm 143:8

"How long must I struggle with anguish in my soul, with sorrow in my heart every day? How long will my enemy have the upper hand?"-Psalm 13:2

The storm will not last forever. The struggle won't last for long. Take what you please on your down time. When you're down, you don't have to stay down. I myself, take things and learn from it. A little of everything. God is beyond good. He keeps me, heals me, strengthens me, teaches me, loves me & so much more. The rain will NOT last forever.-Ashley

Video: Could Have Been A Love Story

I'm sure we've all encountered this one time in our life...

Saturday, March 19, 2011

RIP To Many Relationships

I titled this "RIP To Many Relationships" because this is what I dedicate it to....relationships 
"If God gave it to you, you don't have to cry...". Amen to that sistah. 
I remember when I asked God to show me signs and he did, but I went back to see if it would work & it didn't and in the ending I was left with nothing. I'm teaching myself to be obedient, because I am hard headed at times, and I just need to what? Let go, & let God.
I'm a work in progress...what can I say?

"I figured what I was praying for & fighting for just wasn't for me anymore".

Check out BronzeGoddess01 video: Basic Math/Sweatless Victory

Canceling The Pity Party: BronzeGoddess01

I just recently subscribed to her channel on Youtube and I am so happy that someone recommended it to me. She speaks the truth. 
As I've been going through different things, I've been taking time to get to know myself, and get closer to God. And it's funny, she speaks on things I stopped doing. 
What is feeling sorry for yourself going to do? I'm in the way of my blessings. God is waiting on me to stop the foolishness and tighten up my faith & trust in him. 
I know that's it because I feel it! I'm not perfect, and I never claimed to be, so I admit when I'm wrong and try not to make that same mistake again. 

Please check out this video: Pep Rally/Cancel the pity party

Thursday, March 17, 2011

Positive Affirmation Challenge

I've decided late last night (Tuesday) that once a week I'm going to focus on repeating something positive about myself many times throughout the day or when I think about it. For example "I'm a loving person". It's almost in relations to the whole "Practice makes perfect", but instead if you repeat positive things about yourself.

When you repeat whatever it is you're trying to enforce, it makes you think about it. You have to believe in YOU to allow this to work.

As I'm going through different things, I find that this could be helpful. So this week I'm focusing on one thing, then I'll switch it up next Tuesday. It'll be helpful to write down whatever it is you're focusing on.

This not only allows you to learn about yourself, but love yourself for who you are and not for who you may portray, or would like to be.

Sunday, March 13, 2011

Be Gentle

You never know what someone maybe going through. We as people tend to judge when we  know that's not our job. Or don't know what someone maybe going through. We don't have to walk on egg shells to please someone, but be kind.

Being gentle can mean being more understanding, open, and loving. 
Selfless is the way to go. But can you get there?

Thank God

I'm glad I've chosen to take a break from quit a few things. With everything that's going on and has been going on it's much needed. Life can get you down and contemplating things. I know from all of this, I thank God for showing me the signs and not being blinded by what I've been faced with.

"Life lessons. Lessons learned"-Ashley N.

I live by this quote because it's so true. Life allows you to learn from different things in life. It seems like when you're down...you're down. At times I feel like I can't catch a break. I just pray that everything I'm going through has a purpose and I can look back on it (as I do many situations) and say it was worth it all.

Wait, I mean I know God has a purpose for this all. It's a test. A test of my love, strength, patience, and faith.

Wednesday, March 9, 2011


Today is the official day that Lent starts. It is said you can start whenever, but I feel comfortable starting the day of. I've been contemplating on participating because this is said to be more of a Catholic tradition than Christian. I did my research and it seems as if Christians do it as well.

Anyways, there is a purpose for me doing this and it's to get closer to God. So I have chosen this challenge. A few things I have given up are:

 Social network sites, & worrying. And in place of those things I'm reading my bible more & praying throughout this process, and giving more attention towards my up&coming mentoring program/nonprofit.

I wasn't going to share this because fasting is something that is suppose to be kept between you & God. But maybe by me sharing this will give someone an insight of this. 

I plan to go for the full 40 days. I pray that I make it till then.

Thursday, March 3, 2011

Day 17 - your high and lows of this year

I would have to say for one, this economy is totally getting the best of me. I recently graduated from college & have yet to land a job. It's VERY disappointing, stressful, & depressing. Stupid BUSH! All his fault. Now people are upset with Obama, spare me please!

High, reconnecting with a special person. It's been lovely.

Low, dealing with different things that have occurred in my life. I'm maintaining now & I can't complain.

High, & probably my highest of this year thus far. Is seeing another year & celebrating my birthday last month :)

Wednesday, March 2, 2011

Homemade Deep Conditioner [1]

I've been meaning to document the deep conditioner I made a week or so ago, but I've been busy.

As I'm getting to know my natural hair, trying different products that work for me, I've been experimenting with a few items around my house. This could be good & bad.

The items that I used were:
2. Honey
3. Garneir Fructis conditioner
4. Aphogee Balancing Moisturizer 
5. Blended Aloe Vera (took the actual plan, used the inside *clear part* & blended it with a little water in the blender)

I added the Aphogee because the right amount of PH is needed for our hair. I didn't measure it in anyway. 
I used a fork to mix all of the ingredients in a small bowl, then placed the mix in a old honey bottle I use for other homemade conditioners I make.

I like it. It actually helped my hair out. It was looking messy & unhealthy before.

Next, I'm going to try something similar to what KimmayTube does for her leave in conditioner. I don't have all of the items, so I will be substituting. You can check out her Youtube on how to make her leave in.