Let Go, Let God...

Earlier I tweeted "Feeling free. That's what happens when you let go, & let God" meaning not worrying about a thing & leaving it up to him to deal with. His power & strength is much more stronger than my own. At times I feel defeated. Well many times. For example: Turning in a job application, and not worrying about if you'll get an interview/job. I'm not stressing myself over this part of my life anymore. I haven't been since interview number 2! God has a plan for me...

I just need to remind myself that God is not done working on me & blessing me. All of this is just another test...lesson. Almost like the whole too good to be true before something great happens or appears again. My patience is something that I've been working on for the longest. I may never master that. But I can say I have a better grip on self control. Meaning what I say (watching what I say & to who), how I think (affirmation) & engaging in certain things. Like I've said before, I'm a work in progress.

Thank you Lord for your unconditional love, overwhelming supply of gifts, & for making me ME!  

The Little Black (Back Up) Book

It's late. But a song that reminded me of an individual just came on. Sigh, memories.

In life we meet many different people. Some that stay around for a season with a reason. And a few for a lifetime. For whatever reason we get the two mixed up at times.

Where are you going with this Ashley?
I don't think I'm the only one that has a  phone number or two...3...5 that needs to be deleted from my address book.

It's those you no longer talk to, don't see eye to eye with, the drama queen, the jerk, an ex. Regardless, I think it's time I delete these people from my book. I don't ever talk to them. And running across their name brings back heartache, anger, discomfort or nothing at all. And there's nothing healthy about that. Especially if you're trying to move on. I guess you can say this is the last straw for me.

Deleting the number isn't the hard part. It's getting over the person/feelings.
This is just one of the many steps I have to take to move on. There's no way we can ever act like we never met these people. They're history. A part of our history.

Let them go & regain what is yours.

Sailing Soul(s)..Thee End

"I think we maybe in a different book, on a different page. You said you were different but you're the same, stranger"

No Sugar Coating-Cleaning Out My Closet

I just need to release some negative energy and how I feel about this situation.

I don't care anymore...
I am no longer "cool" with those that call themselves my friends, but don't act on it. I am no longer keeping negative, non-reliable, sometimey people in my life. You either play your role to the best of your ability or not at all. Don't fake the funk. 


It kills me when people have "positive change" in their lives, but they change for the worst. What's up with that? There's just individuals that I no longer have a desire to be "friends" with.


I'm upset yes. Because where were you when you DID not see me around anymore. Where were you when I started to fade away? Where were you when I needed you? With the different events that have occurred in my life, and people didn't show up and play their part, things are so much clearer to me now. And that's fine. We grow apart. Won't be a part of this life time though. If you see this, if you don't, its what-everrrrr.


As I said to my first love. I wish you nothing but the best. And I truly meant that. The same goes for EX-circle (old friends). It was nice while it lasted. It's just time to separate.

RIP To Many Relationships

I titled this "RIP To Many Relationships" because this is what I dedicate it to....relationships 
"If God gave it to you, you don't have to cry...". Amen to that sistah. 
I remember when I asked God to show me signs and he did, but I went back to see if it would work & it didn't and in the ending I was left with nothing. I'm teaching myself to be obedient, because I am hard headed at times, and I just need to what? Let go, & let God.
I'm a work in progress...what can I say?


"I figured what I was praying for & fighting for just wasn't for me anymore".


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Lent...

Today is the official day that Lent starts. It is said you can start whenever, but I feel comfortable starting the day of. I've been contemplating on participating because this is said to be more of a Catholic tradition than Christian. I did my research and it seems as if Christians do it as well.


Anyways, there is a purpose for me doing this and it's to get closer to God. So I have chosen this challenge. A few things I have given up are:


 Social network sites, & worrying. And in place of those things I'm reading my bible more & praying throughout this process, and giving more attention towards my up&coming mentoring program/nonprofit.


I wasn't going to share this because fasting is something that is suppose to be kept between you & God. But maybe by me sharing this will give someone an insight of this. 


I plan to go for the full 40 days. I pray that I make it till then.

Thinking of A Master Plan

I have so many ideas & thoughts about different things I want to see in my community & my life. Things regarding my career, nonprofit, relationships, how I spend my free time & things of that nature.


There's a lot of change I would like to see throughout my life. And the best way to see the change you want to see is to be the change you want to see. Why be a hypocrite and not do your part but expect greatness when you're not producing or better yet, projecting greatness?


It all goes hand-in-hand. So, I'm in the works of many different projects, being the change I want to see. It gets overwhelming at times for me, but I have yet to give up. It's something that I'm dedicated to, therefore I will finish it. One reason why I love setting GOALS for myself. 

Speaking of, I need to add more to my list. I find that my vision board that I put together HERE is helpful, but not the PUSH I was looking/hoping for. I'm more of a hands on type of gal. Let me type out my goals, edit, re-read them on my laptop. That's my thing. But that's just me.


I'll be back to post my blog post challenge!